I HATE TO ASK

2008-08-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

HELLO MY NAME IS MR. BILLY.

THE PURPOSE OF THIS BLOG IS TO ACQUIRE THE FUNDS TO MOVE. HERE'S MY STORY.

I AM 28 YEARS OLD. ALL MY LIFE I LIVED IN CALIFORNIA WITH MY MOTHER, STEP FATHER, 2 BROTHERS AND A SISTER. AS YOU CAN SEE I SAID STEP FATHER. YES THE TYPICAL STEP FATHER STEP SON BAD RELATIONSHIP OCCURED. I'M NOT GOING TO GO INTO DETAILS, BUT LETS JUST SAY IT WAS REAL BAD. MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY! I NEVER NEW MY REAL FATHER. MY MOTHER SAID HE WAS EVEN MORE ABUSIVE. SHE GOT AWAY FROM HIM WHEN I WAS ABOUT 8 MONTHS OLD. AS YOU CAN TELL SHES GOT GOOD TASTE LOL. NEVER THE LESS, WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN MY GRANDMOTHER TOOK ME AND MY 1 REAL BROTHER IN. THANK GOD. SHE LIVED IN A LARGE APARTMENT COMPLEX 2BDRM 1 BATH BUT IT WAS NICE. SHE LOVED US A LOT. SHE EVEN TRIED TO FIGHT MY STEP FATHER ONCE OVER US. YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT. TALK ABOUT FEELING LOVED A 60 YEAR OLD WOMEN TRYING TO FIGHT A 40 YEAR OLD MAN. IT WAS GREAT. ANYWAYS. IT WAS THERE IN THAT COMPLEX WHERE I MET THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. THINGS DO HAPPEN FOR A REASON! COINCIDENTALLY HER FATHER WASN'T MUCH OF A MAN EITHER. HE WAS A ADDICT, DRUGS AND ALCOHOL. SO WE BOTH TURNED TO EACH OTHER FOR THE LONG LOST LOVE WE WHERE STRIVING FOR. A YEAR ALMOST 2 LATER WE HAD OUR FIRST CHILD. BUT BEFORE HE WAS BORN HER FATHER TOOK HIS OWN LIFE. LUCKILY SHE HAS A BIG OLD FASHION FAMILY WHO HELP US THROUGH THE TIMES. HER GRANDMOTHER AND UNCLE PLAYED A HUGE ROLE IN OUR LIVES, ESPECIALLY WITH OUR FIRST BORN. AS TIME PAST WE GREW UP AND GOT ON WITH OUR LIVES. I FORGAVE MY STEP FATHER EVEN THOUGH WE DON'T HAVE ANY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP. THROUGH HIS ANGER HE MADE ME THE LOVING PERSON I AM TODAY. HE SHOWED ME HOW NOT TO LOVE MY KIDS. BY THE TIME I WAS 25 I HAD A GOOD JOB AS A CAR SALES AGENT, AND MY WIFE HAD BEEN A C.N.A FOR 4 OR 5 YEARS. WE DECIDED TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD. 3 MONTHS AFTER WE WERE PREGNANT I LOST MY SALES LICENCE FOR A MISDEMEANOR I HAD GOT 5 YEARS PRIOR. THE STATE DECIDED TO MAKE AN EXAMPLE OUT OF ME. TOUGH LOVE. SO I STARTED DRIVING CLASS B COMMERCIAL TRUCK. WE WERE OK. 2 YEARS AGO I LANDED A JOB WITH A READY MIX COMPANY DRIVING A MIXER. THE MONEY WAS GOOD. 1 YEAR AGO APRIL FIRST, MY WIVES UNCLE DIED FOLLOWED 1 MONTH LATER BY HER GRANDMOTHER. IT WAS PRETTY CATASTROPHIC, BUT LIKE I SAID BIG OLD FASHION FAMILY SO SHE GOT THROUGH IT. WELL THINGS FOR US WERE LOOKING REALLY GOOD FINANCIALLY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN IN A LONG TIME. THEN IN NOV. OF 07 MY BROTHER WHILE POKING AROUND ON THE INTERNET FOUND A GREAT GREAT AUNT ON MY FATHERS SIDE. IN A SHORT TIME OF 4 DAYS MY BROTHER WAS ON THE PHONE WITH OUR LONG LOST GRANDMOTHER. SHE WAS ECSTATIC. LAUGHED AND CRIED. WELL SHE DECIDED FOR CHRISTMAS SHE WOULD GIVE HER SON (MY FATHER) THE BEST GIFT EVER, HIS LONG LOST KIDS. THOUGH HE HAD 2 OTHER NOW HE STILL HAD THAT VOID IN HIS HEART. MY GRANDMOTHER AND HER HUSBAND OWNED A VERY SUCCESSFUL LAND DEVELOPMENT COMPANY AND SENT US 2 ROUND TRIP AIRLINE TICKET FOR DEC. 14TH. WHILE WE ANXIOUSLY WAITED WE TALKED ON THE PHONE. I DIDN'T TALK TO MY FATHER THOUGH, I WASN'T READY. I DECIDED WE COULD TALK FACE TO FACE. NY GRANDMOTHER PRECEDED TO TELL ME THAT I SHOULD COME HOME TO FLORIDA. THOUGH I WAS IN GOOD SHAPE AT HOME IN CALI I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. SHE MADE PROMISES OF A HOUSE, GOOD JOB IN THE COMPANY, COMPANY VEHICLE AND SO ON. ON DEC. 14TH WE FLEW TO FLORIDA. MY FATHER MY SISTER AND GRANDMOTHER MET AT THE AIRPORT. LOTS OF HUGS AND TEARS FOLLOWED. ME AND MY BROTHER SPENT A SHORT FOUR DAYS WITH OUR REAL FAMILY. MY FATHER THOUGH NOT SUCCESSFUL, HAD A BIG HEART. WE DECIDED WE DIDN'T WANT TO DISCUSS THE PAST, WE WOULD JUST BUILD A FUTURE. WHEN I GOT BACK HOME TO MY FAMILY WE DECIDED WE WOULD MOVED TO FLORIDA AND AND BUILD THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY NEW FOUND FAMILY AND HAVE THE LIFE WE ALWAYS DREAMED OF. WHEN WE GOT HERE IN MARCH WE WHERE EXCITED. I WAS READY TO GO TO WORK IN THE FAMILY AND MAKE THE 70+ THOUSAND A YEAR. AFTER BEING HERE A WEEK WE DISCOVERED WE WERE ON OUR OWN. MY GRANDMOTHER GAVE NOTHING. SO I GOT MYSELF A JOB AT THE LOCAL READY MIX PLANT AND MY WIFE WENT TO WORK AT THE CONVALESCENT HOSPITAL. WE FOUND A CUTE HOUSE ABOUT 10 BLOCKS FROM THE BEACH AND WE RENTED IT. IN THE 6 MONTHS WE HAVE BEEN HERE, THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN TO MY HOUSE. MY DAD ENDED UP BEING A TOTALL LOSER WHO DOESN'T LIKE KIDS. MY TWO KIDS HATE HIM. ON JULY 2 I WENT TO THE DOCTOR ABOUT A PAIN IN MY STOMACH. I HAVE A UMBILICAL HERNIA. THE DOCTOR TOOK ME OFF WORK FOR 6 MONTHS SO THAT I COULD HAVE IT SURGICALLY FIXED. I WASN'T THAT WORRIED BECAUSE I HAD A SHORT TERM DISABILITY INS. POLICY THAT I BOUGHT THROUGH WORK. BUT 3 DAYS AGO (A MONTH AND A HALF LATER) MY CLAIM WAS DENIED. DO TO THE FACT I HAD THE HERNIA BEFORE MY POLICY WAS ISSUED THEY WONT COVER IT. SO HERE WE SIT BROKE, AND NO ONE TO TURN TO. WE HAVE DECIDED THAT ITS TIME TO GO HOME TO CALI WHERE R REAL FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE. THE PROBLEM IS WE DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO GO. THE TRIP TAKE ABOUT 5 DAYS PULLING OUR LITTLE TRAILER. WITH THE COST OF GAS, FOOD, HOTELS, AND THE NEW TIRES MY TRUCK NEEDS IT OUT OF OUR REACH. IT WOULD PROBABLY TAKE ABOUT THREE GRAND TO GET OUT OF HERE AND BACK TO CALIFORNIA. WE WILL HAVE ABOUT 5 HUNDRED DOLLARS OURSELVES BUT WE NEED YOUR HELP WITH THE REST. SO THE PURPOSE OF THIS BLOG, EVEN THOUGH I AM ASHAMED, IS TO ASK FOR YOUR DONATION TO HELP US GET HOME. I KNOW 2500 DOLLARS IS A LOT OF MONEY FOR ONE PERSON. EX SPECIALLY IN OUR CURRENT SOCIETY, BUT IF A LOT OF PEOPLE GIVE A LITTLE IT ADDS UP TO A LOT! BELIEVE ME I AM A STRONG BELIEVER IN PAY IT FORWARD, SO IN YOUR KINDNESS SO MANY, MORE THAN JUST MY FAMILY, WILL BE RECEIVING A BLESSING. SO IF YOU CAN FIND IT IN YOUR HEART TO HELP CLICK THE LINK BELOW. IT GOES TO MY PAY PAL ACCOUNT. I WILL POST THE DOLLAR AMOUNT EVERY OTHER DAY. ANYONE WHO WANTS TO SEE IT, IF YOU WILL EMAIL ME, I WILL SEND A COPY OF THE ACCOUNT BALANCE VIA EMAIL. I've have also added tip jar. If insted you would rather do that, just click on the link and you could add you web page or blogg on the listfor others to see. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

gettinghometocali

I HATE TO ASK